Hanging On...

Have you ever told someone “I’m just hanging on…” ? Meaning you are just living day to day. Possibly minute to minute. Not anticipating or expecting certain outcomes, because you just don’t have the energy to deal with the disappointment if they don’t happen a certain way. Telling your friends, you are overwhelmed and exhausted.

You see my anxious heart
You see what I am feelin'
And when I fall apart
You are there to hold me

But not being able to ask for help.

Instead, you put a smile on your face. Say you’re hanging on. Doing fine. Then repeat.

How great Your love for me
Now I see what You're thinkin'
You say I'm beautiful
Your voice is my healin'

Yea, me too.

Without You I just can't get by
So I'm
Hangin' on to every word You speak
'Cause it's all that I need
Hangin' on to every word You say
To light up my way
Even every little whisper
I'm hangin' on as if it were my life
I'm hangin' on

A few weeks ago I went to a concert. And although Mandisa was amazing, Britt Nicole sang this song.

(Silence playlist at the bottom to watch video. Hanging On is a song on the playlist, if you would like to listen to all of it)

How simple, yet so strong is that message? Why do we spend so much of our time trying to fix our own problems when really the One who can fix them is right there. Waiting for us to ask. To just hang on.

And when the darkness falls
I can't see what's before me
Your voice is like the dawn
Always there to guide me

I have a friend from many years ago. One that I went on a missions trip with. She is a sweet spirit who can encourage like no other. She is also a married, mama to two beautiful little girls. And one precious little boy. The boy is fighting. He was born early. With many complications. He is on tubes & monitors. And my friend is left feeling a roller coaster of emotions. As she watches her gift fight for his life.

You know me better than I know myself
Better than anybody else
Your love is soundin' like a ringin' bell
Oh, oh, I won't let go

I can’t imagine. Really. I can’t. I don’t have babies. I can’t relate.

So I'm
Hangin' on to every word You speak
'Cause it's all that I need
Hangin' on to every word You say
To light up my way
Even every little whisper
I'm hangin' on as if it were my life
I'm hangin' on

What I can do is pray. Eagerly. I can offer those words of encouragement, that she once showered me with. I can tell her that she needs to hang on. Not to the doctors. Not to the nurses. Not even to people.

But to God. He provides the ultimate healing. He works miracles. He gives us life.

And peace. And comfort.

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Why do we resist? I don’t think there could ever be a true answer for that.

Instead it simply becomes a day to day.

Minute to minute.

Decision to hang on to Him.